A new kind of normal! Life is not normal whatever that is meant to be. Life without my son is tough, I live each moment differently now. There are brief moments when I wake that I feel like it's all been a bad dream then reality hits. There are days when I wake in tears and nights I just can't make any sense of what happened. But somehow I put one foot in front of the other and carry on. First Christmas without you, we got through it. Your stocking was the only stocking by the fire place. Your name was spoken so many times. I know you were with us all. I miss you..... Life will never be what it was.... Love always mum xxx